So, I wake up each day and put one foot in front of the other. I hope for the best and try not to think of what could go wrong. Some days it’s easy. Some days, not so much.

But, know what makes it easier? People.

Now, my kids and I are very blessed that we get help from friends and family whenever they can. That help is so important. When a friend comes and watches my kids so I can escape, it’s appreciated. When my dad comes and watches them so i am able to grocery shop alone, i am grateful. When someone offers to help me clean, I’m floored. When someone comes over in the middle of the night for me to take one kid to the hospital when she needs to go, instead of all four, that’s so so amazing. When a friends husband and son carry 15-20 bags of pellets in from my shed in the winter so I don’t have to do it again, well, yay!! When someone drops off dinner…I LOVE YOU.

But seriously, NONE of those reasons is the one single thing that keeps my head up and pushes me to keep doing what i’m doing, even when I’m so so tired and so very weary.

I don’t know why, but people keep telling me that I’m an inspiration to them. They tell me seeing my strength is the thing that keeps THEM going.  I used to think they were just being nice and blowing smoke up my ass actually. But, lately, I wonder, “What if they are being honest? What if watching me do what I need to do and push through and smile as much as humanly possible and keep my faith in God….what if me living my life one foot in front of the other really is inspiring another person not to give up?!?!? Well, then I certainly can’t stop!! In fact, I need to be even better every.single.day. so they never give in or give up. Now, obviously, I’m human. We all are and we all have those days. On those days we must reach even deeper to find that thing inside of us, that one small thing that may really, truly be inspiring another individual to keep going. When someone tells me I’m an inspiration or that I’m strong, I must do better. They are inspiring me to make sure I never let them down. They don’t realize how much they are picking me up. Some days I just can’t seem to find that pick me up. Then, suddenly, there they are. There is my fan club who don’t even know they are my fan club.  Thank you to my friends and to strangers, thank you. You certainly do make me feel like a rockstar.